Responsibilty and dignity

Whenever I make a Promise I will try out my best... The Best I could to fulfill it...
I am not born with fast learning genes like some...
But I do NOT run away from the responsibility given upon me
U asked and I said "yes", that means "yes"
Sometimes I hate myself for couldn't spell the word "No"

When I commit, please dun let me know u are just exploiting me
I hate being exploit
Stupid or simple-minded is not a crime but its a weakness
Ppl tends to exploit on that, thinking that the person won't mind
Not knowing doesn't mean don't mind

Does friend build on "usability"?
If a person is of no usage value to you, would you consider him/her a friend still?

I thought friends help each others, not use each others
Building network and building friendship is total different thing

I dun like the feel of being exploit
Its as heavy a crime as a lie
Its undermining your "friend's" knowledge, dignity and value

I am losing on what I am writing now...
So confused
Things outside are a mess, not much better than inside me

With all the shit I am facing, deep down I still believe there's some people I could rely on
My family is my value of existence, proof of existence
And the reason I will not give up on myself, even when the world has given up on me