Beat yourself!!!

It's been a few days after the release of results....
Finally something to be smile about =) Although the improvement is small but nevertheless its a positive to my CAP after 2 semesters of constant dropping... *phew!!
A "B-" in the result id definitely an eyesore but at least I had did my best and get result better than my expectations...
Although feeling quite happy and contented towards my results, its really frustrating to see how much I still suck at Takraw after so many trainings... Still making those stupid mistakes and having those unwanted doubts to jump in for the ball during matches...
Its time to wake up Teo Peng!!
U ve gotta know that u will never be as good as a killer as Hanslee, as energetic as wuhong, or as good of a ball header as Josh, as stable as Terence... U will never beat them and may not even be at their level even after u leave NUS....
U are weak!! But never give up!!! Just do what you think u are good at! Never compare yourself to the others! Just compare yourself to the Teo Peng 1 week before, 1 day before or even 1 minute before!! You are not a genius, but there is someone you can always beat if u try, that is urself TeoPeng!!!
Never give up in beating urself!!!

Busy Day = Happy Day ^^

Yesterday had been a super busy day... I woke up at 7am, having only 6hrs of sleep, laze around 10 mins as usual then got myself up to bath. My first lab of my 3rd year is at 9am so I got my bag and head to the dining hall to have breakfast... my first breakfast of 3rd year too!!! haha
This 1st lab I am supposed to get a hand on the turning process... I found the lab is one of the most interesting among the labs I had so far... Getting my hands on a real machine and actually turing a simple cylindrical steel into something that "looks" useful ~_~
This is good in the sense that it at least start making me interested in engineering again, as I start to get frustrated over the subjects and some lecturers that turn my head around @_@
My result (as in CAP) also keep on decreasing... making me worried as hell.....
Hopefully I can gain more interest and MORE CONFIDENCE so that I can improve myself better.
After lab I had to rush to com cluster to design the rally day flyer (for election committee of my hall) in an hour before my class starts.... @_@
Finally I got it done but was told by sms that I dun have to rush ~~~ -_-|||
I go for my class and was too tired at the 3rd hour and the lecturer damn frustrating... keep talking to students in front row only and his explanation made me go @_@
So.... I start to fish in class -_-zzzz
FINALLY my torture is over and since Josh and Joel wanna go to Queensway to shop for Josh's new shoes, I think I might as well follow them so I can shop at Ikea for a new frying pan that my new hot plate had been crying for...
Josh got his shoes and we both got a frying pan ourselves ^^
We bid farewell to Joel at Ikea as he now lives out campus and will not be following us back to hall
Got back to hall and into my room and then I am out of my room in 30 mins as I wanna tabao dinner then go for basketball with hall friends ^^
Too long didnt touch basketball made me rust and played like a retard on the court ~_~
After basketball at 10pm, straight go for election comm to help put up the flags for election day
After that, I straight go for Sepak Takraw at the comm Hall.... When stepped into comm hall the 1st sound I heard is "Kxxx" from Terence as I was more than an hour late due to the election comm x_x
I also saw a familiar face that is Yuan Yan also came to join us for Takraw ^^
I sucked as most of the games but there are a few moment of brilliance for me too hahaha *thick face*
After Takraw its almost 1am already so I went bak to my room so damn shagged (tired in Singlish)
Its been a busy day but I lived through it and I am glad I had such a day ^^

The Next Target~~~

Finally got the Sony Ericsson W850 I ve longed for since last year~~~ Yippeee~~~ XD
Will upload the images of my "xiao bai" (little white) later hahaha~~~
The next target for me will be the Sony PSP which i think i won't be able to lay my hand on for at least another year~..~ Completely broke after getting my xiao bai~~~

Next target~~~

Friends....

During the short yet long 2 weeks of exam week, a lot of things had happen, which some i wish never ever should happen... =(
I have 2 friends which are good friends at least ever since i kno both of them... During the time when exams and assignment due dates approaching, something bad really happen between both of them which causes a large crack in between them and in part of my heart... I never saw that coming ... especially being told about that problem during my birthday.... 2007 April 14th is really not a happy day for me, not to say having my birthday during fully pressurized exam weeks...
I never liked to have birthday party which sometimes i found quite awkward but seeing friends sending me greetings and try to get some time to celebrate wif me really made me happy...
However, it was really saddening when i heard that 2 good friends of mine have turned foes or decide to just let go of their friendships due to miscommunication that happened in the process of completing an assignment... Seeing one alienating herself from all of us while the other feeling sad for having to made the decision really breaks my heart... Maybe bcos I ve never seen or met such things before, I really can't accept the fact that these 2 friends are not friends anymore and it is impossible to go out together wif both of them, having fun like always we did....
Really feel helpless as one decided to struggle and face the problems aftermath of the breakup while the other saying that she never regret but very sad that she had to make the decision...
Miscommunication is very common during assignments but never thought it would end a friendship which I really envied of....
During my birthday I ve made a wish... wish that the 2 once good friends can become good friends again... I really hope they can be friends again... friends that matches each other really hard to find I really .... deep down my heart hope that one day.... just mayb .... that small possibility of seeing them both walking together, go to class together and smile together again...
I dun wan to see such precious friendship just turn to ashes....

CCA or CAP?

Few months after i last did my blogging....
Too busy wif literally everything... from cca to catching up to my studies in NUS...
Dunno if i did the right thing in chiong-ing my cca so that i can confirm my stay in the hall... -_-
Definitely achieve great result in getting hall pts though... being able to get into.... i think top 20? in the ranking of most cca pts... I wish .... really wish that can be changed to achievement in my academic performance~..~
Although having fun in some of the activities such as handball and sepak takraw which i met really nice ppl and got myself a good friend which is very rare for a person like me...
Although some of the activities really sucks and i had bad experience through it...i can't say i regret joining any of them cos i really learnt something, anything at all and got to kno some new friends ^^
Sometimes kinda feel bad that i couldn't spend much time wif my friends from Malaysia coz been involving in too many activities.... Everytime they asked me out i was busy wif this with that and couldn't cut myself loose from those responsibilities... -_-
Now finally I ve been released from those unwanted bonds and being able to spend more time wif my friends... getting out together, having fun...despite having my wallet growing a great big enormous hole -_-|||
After desperately struggling to catch up to my studies and disappearing from the hall for 2 weeks to concentrate on my studies... finally the exam is over....
Really appreciate the time spent with friends in pgp during the exam period... Although keep on "uru-ing" (insulting ... in a friendly way lol) each other most of the time but it a least got rid some of the pressure of studying/mugging around 12 hrs a day...
Finally... the exam is over dy, although some paper really eat my heart out but at least i tried my best and hopefully i won't have any regret when the result is out~~~ (fingerS crossed >..<)

Happy Valentine's Day

Today is Valentine's Day but same as every year, dun really have any special feeling bout tat...
However, today still a special day as its D-Day for Chinese Drama. Really been worried for a long time bout this as many problems await me since the first day of rehearsal... Difference in opinions, selfish teammates, time constraints, stupid mistakes by me~~, at the problem most of the time~lack of stage crew members....
The day finally came and the problems just get more n more exciting! ~_~
Before the show began I was skeptical bout the number of ppl coming for the show even though its free admission... However, at around 6pm I was told happily by Charlie that there's already ppl coming earlier to book places...even though the show starts at 730pm!!
At around 730pm, as we were waiting anxiously for the arrival of Hall master, the house was already packed with audiences!! I was at backstage, sharing some jokes wif the stage crews, trying to calm myself down... ~_~ typical TeoPeng...
I was in charged of the right stage and I have 4 members to assist me, Wuhong, Mingxi, Zou Xiang and Sun Chang. To be frank they were quite slack during most of the rehearsals but today they really impressed me!! Wuhong as usual do his thing casual and efficient... Even Sun Chang who I worried the most as he always disappear from my sight was doing very good!! Thank you all stage crews!
The show started and everyone started applauding. The casts all were very good especially Zhi Jin who is always a natural actor. The audience laughed all the way thru the show, and I mean ALL DA WAY man!! Despite small mistake by me for exposing my crew members.... the show was quite a success! Charlie was very happy after the show, nice to see that since he as a leader was in really great pressure during these few days...
So... I shud say KE Chinese Drama... A success!! ^^Y
As I finish typing this, Valentine's Day is over dy~~
Well.... Its a relief at least for me... FREE from CCA for the moment!! Ya~~~

TeoPeng's a failure...

IHG is over now... the team lost 28-8 to raffles...=(
I felt so helpless in the game... My stamina sucks and I failed to protect the keeper on number of occasions...
felt really sorry for Yuan Yan as he keep shouting for the lack of defense in our team... I really felt I am just plain useless...
My inability to perform also 1 of the causes that my good fren shed tears after the game... I wouldn't say I cause the team to lose cause a match is not an individual game i know tat... Its arrogant to say that you alone cause the team to lose cos 1 person doesn't make a team

Our cooperation should be good - tats wat he told me and it made me happy~
In the game I kept on making foolish mistakes and unable to make many chance for him...
He jumped and fell hard, got up and then continue jumping all around for chances... I could have assisted him more but WHY WHY do i fucked up??
I admit I sucks totally in sports but I really want to win...
I am a terrible vice captain... He is the one doing all the hardwork, trying to bring more ppl down to train for the game, trying to get a budget that surpasses many other sports, giving more than 100% during trainings and matches... All I could do was to help him do small small things which sumtime I fucked up doing it... I dun deserve to be a vice cap, I dun deserve to be in the 1st lineup, I dun even deserve to call myself his fren...
He love the game and the tears he shed was an undeniable proof of tat... All I can do now I try to learn to love the game as well and at least try my very best to let him play with smiles in the game...

IHG and battered body (x_x)_I~I_

This evening will be IHG dy~~~ Most probably the last IHG of the year for me...
Since raffles already won eusoff 28-19 and eusoff won against us 20-9 we will have to win raffles to put all teams draw with 1 win each...
HOWEVER... if its a draw the ranking will be based on total goals scored in group matches u do simple maths and will see how low the probability of KE7 handball team can pull thru...
Despite 90% out of the IHG dy I still dun wanna leave without a win... Raffles is stronger than eusoff and we lost to eusoff due to inexperience and stupid fu*k referees. I spied on raffles when returning the goal posts to them n found their physique is certainly more muscular than many of us -_-|||
Well... we ve got nothing to lose so just have fun today... I wanna play the match wif a smile on everyone's faces ^^

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My legs so damn painful~i think i will be going to UHWC for overall check after the games...
I suspect some ligament or tendon injury cos it sometimes so f*ckin painful til i wanna hit ppl dy
The 4 joints of my body ie knees and elbows is in vain now... Maybe fatness is a reason as the joints just can't bear such heavy mass jumping around... have been trying to lose weight but i think managed to lose the 3 kgs i ve gained from last holiday... so marginal benefit=marginal cost isn't it? ~_~ sien sia... everyday let my stomach cry of hunger but still dun have much improvement on tat...
be strong teopeng... \m/ (-_-) \m/

Hallplay ^^

Went to watch the hallplay by my hall today...
The show starts around 730pm but experience tells me that I shud go a lil bit earlier to get good seats... When I was down at the terminal met a lot of keviians going there too... the kviian crowd was made up of mostly couples ~_~ YY n yueting, hanwei and his gf....
Midway to the UCC where the show is held, YY spotted a C bus which will save us a walking distance to UCC. He told me hurry to hold down the bus as its already leaving so I quickly ran thru crowds boarding our bus and made to the C bus in time. *Phew... isn't it.......? As I put a leg into the bus I turn back and saw nobody behind me???! I tried to slow down my steps so they can follow up but the damn bus driver so damn fierce *_*
Damn scared of the bus drivers in NUS as i heard someone was purposely "clamped" by the bus door operated by the bus driver as tat person aboard the bus from the back door - which is not encouraged here... ~_~
So I had to go up the bus n leave them all behind~~~ sorry lar...
I reach UCC around 715 - which is quite an ideal timing as the seats are less than half-filled.
One of the usher show me a seat at the side which according to her is a good seat. On my left was 3 old ladies chit chatting... Well since my fren fly kite then I have to make do wif it...watch the show on my own ~_~
YY and co. reached ~15 mins later, he saw me and teased me saying "gao jao...(good one)" ... made me even more guilty ~_~ sorry lor....
The bad thing about reaching early is tat u got nothing to do but to stare into the air and listen to the ladies chatting beside me~~~
In front of me were Dr. Farrer and his family. The 2 daughters of his is sooo cute... especially the youngest daughter which i think around 1 year old only...At least its not so boring waiting for the show with them in front of me^^
Finally the show starts~~~
The show called "letters from the frontline" is mainly about war between 2 countries called Europa and Latvaria which I think Europa resembling the western countries while Latvaria with the leader called Premiere ~ sounded more like Iraq... well watever it is...
Other than war of course there is the love story about a man having to go to war desperately finds a girl stranger to be his pen pal to support him during war... the storyline at some part was kinda DeJaVu but like it though~~~
What i love about the play were the characters which were soooo damn funny! We have DeWen a boy who brings a cordless phone (not our handphone as there wasn't hp yet tat time >_<) to war and have heavy Sporean/Malaysian accent. Good job done by Josh making the character so funny and at times cute? Also like the character called Donni i think played by Lynn who was my Kewoc at 1st year... very funny and "manly" XD
The show lasted around 1 1/2 hrs and I laughed thru most of the time ^^
For those who missed the show I can just say its too bad~~~ coz for me its worth the $ spent
After the show I went out and saw Raffles' girls handball team training at nite just in front of UCC... and it reminds me tat 2nd and possibly the last IHG handball match is just 2~3days away. We have lil chance of winning as Raffles r the reigning champions in handball last year... Although a lot of seniors have left but their strength are still undeniable...
Apart of me hope this ends sooner so tat I can study cos I so damn lag in my studies... However another part of me so damn pissed and eager not to lose cos i can be damn kiasu also sometimes~_~
I just dun wanna go down without fighting... after all the hardworks in trainings and all the stress my captain bear ...
Just hope at least I can play as happy as when I had Sepak match against Temasek and Eusoff - fun and no regrets... yeah~~~ No Regrets!

1st posting..... ~_~

Hello to those that miraculously bumped into my blog~~~
Well... dun expect too much from my blog as my last blog was total failure due to incurable laziness then is already in my flesh n bones since my birth~~~ -_-|||
Since I ve been getting feedbacks from friends around me that I am too antisocial I hope maybe I can try blogging and see if the situation improves...
This maybe also a good place for me to shout out all the negativities in my mind >_< ... not to forget to improve my typing skills as now i m only able to use max of 2 fingers per hand to type ~_~
Phew~~~ the first posting is as hard as i can be... but at least I ve made it...
Hope this is a good start for me to keep this blog alive -_-