非诚忽扰

请不要尝试喜欢我

因为我一旦决定了要爱，就不会往回看

我只懂得横冲直闯

我只懂得毫不保留

Change = Commitment

To change, these are what I need to do:  

Weekly

• Monday: Work place improvement 
• Tuesday: Gym 
• Wednesday: Work place improvement 
• Thursday: Gym Friday: Work place improvement 
• Saturday/Sunday: Gym 
• Sunday/Saturday: Enjoy with friends 

Daily (Weekday)

• 7:00am: Wake-up + 500ml Water
• 7:05am: Push-ups x30 + Planking 8x20s
• 7:15am: Bath
• 7:25am: Appreciate what I have IN ME
• 7:30am: Out for work
• 8:20am: Digest Email
• 8:45am: Short Team Briefing
• 9:30am: My To-do-list
• 12:00noon: Lunch!
• 4:30pm: Review To-do-list
• 5:30pm: Self development works
• 7:30pm: Back home!
• 8:30pm: Bath and relax (manga, anime, Runningman ...), Learn fashion/DavidD, News
• 10:30pm: Self-reflect
• 11:00pm: Sleep

Daily (Weekday)

• 7:00am: Wake-up + 500ml Water
• 7:05am: Push-ups x30 + Planking 8x20s
• 7:15am: Bath
• 7:25am: Appreciate what I have IN ME
• 7:30am: Out for work
• 8:20am: Digest Email
• 8:45am: Short Team Briefing
• 9:30am: My To-do-list
• 12:00noon: Lunch!
• 4:30pm: Review To-do-list
• 5:30pm: OT or NO OT?
• 7:30pm: GYM
• 11:30pm: Self-reflect
• 12:00am: Sleep

 Need Improvement on:

• Appearance
• Discipline
• General Knowledge
• How to connect with people
• Leadership, Courage, Drive

为何

如果从来没在一起过，为何心会如此痛

如果从来没有牵过手，为何会如此想念

如果从来没有被爱过，为何会犹如失去一切

如果原本就无懈可击，为何会感觉一败涂地

如果从来没爱过，为何会痛不欲生

Patience

Apparently I have a long way to go.
She might have come to a point of not forgiving me, or feeling indifferent since it doesn't matter anymore anyway.
Accept the loss. Nothing can change that.

Patience. I need a lot of that.
Let go. Time will tell.
Focus is on ME. I need to improve myself, keep myself motivated and top the previous me everyday.
Do NOT Compare with others. Improve myself is the main path and the main goal.
I failed horribly, and this time there's no excuse for failure, nor there's any room for it.
It's for my future.

Patience. Deconstruct every end of the day, but revive every morning. I will fight on.

:')

I miss her. Every moment that was.

Heart, Gut and Brain

The heart is a great indicator of feeling towards someone or something

The heart can tell, when u are eager to connect to a person

The heart can tell, when u want to spend time with that person

But the heart, can be a sucker when facing with all the elements other that the pure feeling of love, happiness, sadness

It will guide u towards the entity that it likes, filtering off all those external elements 

The gut, is the catalyst for u to make the important leap

The heart and brain will fight over the conflicting items, and gut will come in to be the game changer, for u to decide to take or not to take the leap

At same time, the gut feel is the one for u to decide when to make the hardest decision. It can be the key element to decide ur happiness or despair

The brain, with all the knowledge and experience that it have, will provide you with all the rationality to make judgement. More often than not, this conflicts with what the heart feels. Some facts do not add up to convince the heart that it will work or it will fail

The heart believe in courage and kindness come from within 

The brain believe in facts, practicality and self well being

The clashes of the 2 are often where the internal conflicts arise

When that comes, believe ur gut feel

The primal instinct where in store of a human

Let the gut decide, brain to react and protect, and the unwavering heart to strive on

Zip It

I don't need any fucking pity from anyone

I tried my best and I was played out

Why should I be ashamed when I pour out my heart only to be trampled about

At least I am being true to myself all along

So stop the pity looks, it's disgusting beyond words

Let me be me, and just fuck off

The first time in my life, I experience hypocrites first handed and it disgusted me to the core

I have friends that care and understand me well enough, and don't need those that pretend to care enough to strike a blade into my heart