What's happening to me?

What happened to you teo peng?
You were fat, but you were always happy..
You were bullied, but still you live an optimistic life, cos u know its your friends who are bullying you, but you have friends...
You may sucked at history and geography, but you faced them positively, you keep on trying...
You were so happy and carefree...
What is happening to you teo peng?
Why can't you feel happy anymore?
Is it because you start to realise that the world is not perfect and never will be?
Is it because there are too much suffering you had witnessed?
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This is not the type of growing up i want?
I just wanna be happy...
What's happening to me?
Happy things make me sad...
Sad things make me angry...
I dun want like this...
I dun want this teo peng...
How can I cheer up?
I just dun wanna be sad anymore...